I am remorseful for ignoring all your smiles and hi. Deep inside, I want to share my thoughts with you. Holidays are more convoluted than what I have imagined before. I should have discontinue lying to myself, and be honest. Waiting for you, is like, walking the distance of the earth, weary and looks like there will be no closing stages. Hang in there, you make me a pugilist. That is an added optimistic side of it.