; With love,

SALAM


WISHING ALL THE SEPTEMBER BIRTHDAY PEOPLE ;

1. My dear anak biri-biri hitam sister, Aqilah (3.09.93)

2. My harimau belang sister, Atiqah (14.09.89)

3. My superhero for all the time, Ayah. (16.09.66)

4. My Superman look alike uncle, Pak Lang (19.09.81)

5. My otai friend, Wada. (25.09.89)

6. My bestest friend from the beginning, Iza Izwana. (30.09.91)


And to other September-ians, Have fun and may be blessed :)

To Iza, the conversation of your free call was fun and shine me up though it was just a 30 minutes laugh. I miss you a lot dear. We are single club! :)

Now, I miss people from Hartamas :(


2 Cekal, 3 Cekal, 4 Marikh ;

Deeb, pernah di situ.

; Just take the pain for granted.

Salam.

As months of stay in Banting passed by, without even reflecting some of the inflection, neglecting some people around me, acting numb and even blurriness towards the whole life I would actually blend into this life for another 21 months here. I love the facts it is only 30 minutes journey from here to my home. Phew.

I do not want to judge anything about people. However, things are really come forward to me and I am acting numb as it is not my issue. Truthfully, it is actually distract my reputation and my feelings. They just don't get the real thing about any issue that keep on coming my way.

I was numb, and here was pain, trying to make its way, wanting to be acknowledged. Forceful, you were. Though I tried and tried to become ignorant, I tried to err on the side of optimism where things would always work out alright, if not alright, it would always work out the way He knows whats best, and hence I let it flow. But something is just not right. Something, just bothers my system.

It is all about the intention that you have set up as the mission that is always there to accomplish. Sometimes, I do take note of being so optimistic, but sometimes, I let it go beyond the dark side of me. Thinking how cruel life is.

I am not sure to love or hate you. Somehow, I forgot how to fall in love again or the worst part is to have the faith towards someone you are devoted to. Admittedly, now, I am not even sure I am talking about you or the other guy I just met.

Am I shifting the thoughts? Or losing the hope?

I mean, you have nothing to lose, and you have nothing to expect too. It is too vague. I do not know how far can I go with the expression and the terms from people around me anymore. Despite I have learn lots of thing to get the track with feelings. Something you cannot be forced to, but can be spread into the feelings itself.

I don't know how much longer I can go with the terms anymore. It is more difficult than the formula of e=mc2, that is the emotion. What do you expect?

Should I be rebellious against the law of attraction? Like I can handle them much.

My problem is.

I am making too many STUPID assumption about something, even it is about you and your unwashed hair. Nah.

Too clairvoyant, then it comes true.

Sheesh. I AM JUST NOT INTO HIM, okay? This is public truth.


These wall,
Deeb.

; Good bye my lover ,

Salam and Hello people.

Today is 7th of Syawal where the radio still plays the Raya songs, indeed the Raya mood is still here with me however, currently in KMB. No idea I have been so keen about volunteering the Sambutan Kemerdekaan Day stuff. It's very quiet here, luckily there are, Aimi and Fats, at least they fill up the full version of the tranquility in the block. Oh, and the drama team Izzati, Zack, Bazy, etc. Okay, they do really making the out-of-harmony zone.

I already miss Ibu, Ayah, Muhammad, Amirah and the other two cat and dog sister, Atiqa and Aqila. The fact that they are the six people who actually makes my day. It's a sudden confession when you are actually left abandon here alone. Without anyone, shouting at you to prepare the breakfast or wash the dishes.

Okay, whatever. It's the fact I am surviving the life as the IB-ers.

Oh, peeps, nak kecoh jap, I bought a new phone. I really live my current phone. Though it is not as expressive as any Iphone, or XpressMusic Nokia or any form of Blackberry, I truly appreciate the existence of this Sony Ericsson W508i.


To me, she is perfect. Affordable, and suits me well. Good bye my Nokia (I don't know the series). Thanks for the memory that you and I had. Isk isk isk.

Kenapa tetiba ada lagu Raya banyak sangat ni? Kan dah sedih. Nak balik! :( Tu laa, pepandai sangat nak volunteer. Dah la Astro kat bawah takde movie package. Ugh.


Dah la nak sambung habiskan Malay A1.


*Kenapa Ibu saya mempunyai hati yang sungguh mulia? SANGAT SANGAT? Nak peluk dia kuat kuat :(


Deeb.

; A little whiny.

Caution ; This is Super Wild Post.

When, there are some faker posers.

I had enough of all these time. I do not want to spit it all out since it happened just a sudden and it did actually bother me. I meant, it pissed me off to the max.

I am not a top scorer student, nor most hardworking person you have ever met. I am just Adibah, with her own feeling of confidence, enthusiasm, joy, and everything she feels about when she is in the mood of something. What you do think, is what makes you a beautiful person. Just don't ask me why. These people are so worth to know something. I am getting disgusted with some ppl or the existence of this so-call species day by day and even struggle to think, sometimes about my own behavior that is always depends on critics, which is such a foolish opinion. But, these people are not worth anything. Regardless, yes, sure it is one of the best way to improve yourself, undeniably.

Eh, if I am so like this ;
"OMG, I AM SO HARDWORKING PERSON. I AM NERDY. I DO BRING MY ECONOMICS COURSE COMPANION ALONG WITH THE MC GEE BOOKS EVERYWHERE I GO"

Don't care much about this person, YOU, YOURSELF GET A LIFE!

Oh, now I know some people are so easy to be psyched. Bring your book everywhere and tell this people, you had covered the whole book. And they will go so mad (mentally) and stay up late till the morning and the person will actually say this.

HAHA, I DO NOT STUDY. WHY EH? LEPAK-LEPAK CUKUP.

Reason 1 ; Showing the whole world that you can be so freaking genius without even touch a book

Reason 2 ; So, ppl around you will like so worship you.. because you are genius! Figuratively.

Reason 3 ; Because you don't want other people to know that you are actually a SUPER NERD person.

Please. Stop it.

Orang yang pandai tapi tak perlu belajar banyak, dibandingkan dgn orang yang mcm biasa tapi dia banyak berusaha dan belajar.. mana lagi banyak pahala? Gunakan akal. Anda mampu mengatasinya.

And, please shut your face off when your score is actually higher than everybody and still, you are blaming yourself to be so freaking stupid.

Is this the life I have been stuck into for past 2 years since my Beseri era? I realized that I have change a lot. Both positive and negative. Equally spread throughout me.

Now, I agree with Kei little post about this. Pffts.


Menyampah ;
Deeb .

; Monday happened to be moneyday. Sheesh.

Salam people.

First, THANKS TO MISS BALL for accompanied me for the shoe hunting. Finally, I found just the right shoe. I rather do my lab report than wasting my time moving from one shop to another. It was quite annoying. And I hate the fact that I have really high taste in choosing one. Susah betul la. Here, I would like to conclude that, this year collection looks typical, bak kata Ball. Ah, tak kisah la, asalkan aku dah beli kasut. Next year, beli selipar cukup. Susah sgt. Pffts. Oh, Mid was packed with people too just now. It's monday. Like eh? Kaya betul rakyat Malaysia ni.

Okay, enough on the Raya shopping matter. Change to a celebration mood. I am going to the Hospital Kuala Lumpur for the attachment :) Hebat kan? The one who fears on bloody injuries and bad wounds is going to face them tomorrow. As if. I just can't figure out why I am having this stupid fear. It is just a red liquid and some fabulous anatomy of human. Nah, do not say anything about my ambition. I am sure I can do it one day. I believe that everybody has the same opinion regarding this matter. I suggest you guys go and watch AWAKEN, Jessica Alba and Hayden Christensen. Great movie. Or else, just watch Jack The Ripper, the Captain Jack Sparrow. I forgot his name laaa. Apa ntah. Asyik igt Jack Sparrow je. Bloody movie. Or SAW.

Tapi, tapi, semua tu psycho je lebih. Serious. Just then, I would like to share for why I feel really afraid, I feel that I can actually feel the pain and the blade is stressed on to the skin itself. I have this imagination, a bad one. But, the optimistic of m will never turn me down. There is no looking back. I am going to be a doctor someday. Open up my own clinic. Marry a good guy, having a perfect family ahead. Hahaha.

Orang merah memang kuat berangan. Jangan pertikaikan. Dan orang merah ni, sedang bertungkus lumus nak jadi orang biru. Motif? Maths la.




Dr Deeb .

; Of thoughts and many other issues.

Salam people. Hello :)

I am Adibah, reporting from here, KMB. 2 compact and full weeks. And I am seriously going to bend myself down at my home, as if there is nothing to do. Well, just sadly, today is the last day where we were all, especially KMB's students breaking the fast together for the first time. It was absolutely happening, and crowded. The teachers, staff etc etc. And even the children were playing around. Feels like home and even, good about it. Alhamdulillah, this place has given me something that I think I can't receive from any other places.

My really everything in one classmates. I am so going to miss them this whole Raya holiday, especially my bestfriend. HARHAR. See? I laugh in the different spelling now. I had a very good time with my Kakak Syafi and Kakak Diba as my Usrah sister. Adding up, my other usrah members which would likely to be very friendly and there goes my pok pek ness with them.

Oh, one more thing to HARHARHAR about is I am applying for the next MPP. Hehe. The true facts about this, is that, I just should give a try. Kan? Okay, first let me define. If Allah has chosen the person to be part of it, then why should we resist not to? Because, we all acknowledge that Allah knows what is the best for His slaves. If , I am not chosen to be part of it too, I would not suicide or eating overdose tablets of paracetamol as I know there is something better awaits me, kan? Siapa setuju? Plus, regarding from what Ustazah Johainah had told our class about everybody is born to lead, but it depends on how they use the skill to apply it. Hmmm, sophisticated, I say?

Nah, hoping that I am not put too much hope in this matter. However, if there is any rezeki, it comes from The Greatest and The Almighty, Allah.

I am starting to love maths again. Why? Guess less. And,

I THINK I SCREWED UP EVERY PAPER ! Mati aku macam ni.

Tolong berubah, tolong ye.




Love after marriage, << ada kaitan ke??
Deeb .

; Anda jangan bazir masa di sini, tolong .

Salam Ramadhan, a month full of His Blessings.

Life in KMB is getting busier each day. Feels like everything is moving fast forward, without the reverse mode. Let me start off the story with my class issue. Hmm, I am half way done with the class decorations since I volunteered myself to be the Ketua Keceriaan Kelas. Hah, see, you can't resist my creativity! Well, my overall quiz mark was sad to say, not a good one to be proud of. I think I should get those chemicals to get rid of my rusty brain.

The best part was, when I did my Agama presentation. Dahlah kene pasang that LCD projector stuff with this laptop. I was freaking out as I did not know how. And the whole class, especially FRED was being so sarcastic to say that, I have the most expensive and the latest laptop. Ohh, SHUT UP. Lucky, to have ex president of Comm Bureau from MJSC Kuala Krai, Mr Tengku Syahrul for helping me to get into the slides again. Phew. The presentation was not that bad, Ustazah likes it anyways. HAHAHA. Bangga terlampau. *Tutup muka dengan tangan*

My CAS activity last week, was actually tested my whole patience to serve those special kids. They were hyperactive, oh no, it was the girl who chose me. Truth to be told, it was hard to communicate with them. But, they were all very friendly and funny. Alhamdulillah, everything was not that bad during that day. At least I did get the chance to meet them alive, because to me, they have these right to be guided. Kita tak pernah rasa apa yang mereka rasa, sebab kanak-kanak istimewa seperti mereka tidak tahu apa yang sebenarnya, mereka patut rasakan. Kesian kan? Oh before I forgot, I met some awesome guys from Japan who come to the Klang Special School for some activities. They were all very cool and nice and hoooooot too. Hehe. And this guy named Akira said hi to me, the fact here is he is damn freakin HOT weyh. Serious tak tipu. He even smiled to me. Kehkeh.

Yesterday, I was stalking this group of guys who actually looking for the route to the Bazaar. However, the plan was a failure since the guys had lost their way too and plus, we are forbidden to go out to the Bazaar. Reason? Save the DS food, perhaps.

Next week is going to be a tough week. Chemistry, Biology, Maths, Economics and Taekwondo grading day. People pray for me. Waaaaaa. Hopefully, I do not get stuck with the red pops on the face again. Please please please. Raya nak dekat dah.. kena jaga penampilan. Okay, takde kaitan.

The truth is always public. This super absolutely boring post is just to feed my boredoms while waiting for the Buka time.

BOSAN PUNYA ENTRY.