; Keeping my faith.

The Climb
by Miley Cyrus .

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
The pain I'm knowing
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith

Keep your faith

_____________________________

Way to go girl !

DEEB, boleh !

Hiatus ;
Deeb .

; They found me.

RESUME

PERSONAL INFORMATION
Name : Nurul Adibah Binti Abdul Rahman
Address : --Nil--
Contacts : 017-xxxxxxx (mobile) / 03-xxxxxxxx (house)
E-mail : adiba.ar@gmail.com

________________________________________________________________

EDUCATIONAL FOCUS
Degree in Medicine

EDUCATIONAL BACKGROUND
• Tadika Chong, Bangsar, Kuala Lumpur (1995 – 1997)
• Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Damansara, Kuala Lumpur (1998 – 2003)
• MARA Junior Science College Kuala Kubu Bharu, Selangor (2004)
• Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Seri Hartamas, Kuala Lumpur (2005 – 2006)
• MARA Junior Science College Beseri, Perlis (2007 – 2008)

SKILLS
• Able to communicate fluently in both Bahasa Melayu and English
• Able to communicate in public and good communication skills
• Able to produce good paperwork
• Able to conduct events and group works
• Leadership skills
• Basic level for Microsoft Office (Words, PowerPoint, Excel, Access), Adobe Flash Player, Photoshop

EDUCATIONAL ACHIEVEMENTS
• 2003
- Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah : 5 A
- Best Student for Bahasa Melayu Subject
• 2004
- Principal’s List of Merit (2 semesters) : 3.51 , 3.59
• 2006
- Most Promising Student for Penilaian Menengah Rendah (PMR)
- Penilaian Menengah Rendah (PMR) : 8 A
• 2007
- Principal’s List of Merit (2 semesters) : 3.66 , 3.52
• 2008
- Best Student in Bahasa Melayu
- Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) : 10 A

EXTRACURRICULAR ACTIVITIES
• Club Membership / Professional Organizations
- Student Disciplinary Board
- Hostel Management Committee
- Treasurer and Photographer of Editorial Board
- Vice President of Tennis Club
- Treasurer for Sport House
- Treasurer for Taekwondo Club
- Member of English Language Society

• Participation
- Leadership camp
- School Enrichment Module for Young Scientist Exhibition
- Biology and Physics camp
- Mentor Programme ( Biology, Chemistry and English )
- Young Entrepreneur Programme
- Adventure Unit of Cultural Bureau
- Facilitator for Science Games
- Master of Ceremony of Majlis Gemilang SPM 2008

• Accomplishments
- Third place for Tennis Tournament, MSSPs
- Second place for School Enrichment Module for Young Scientist Programme

REFERENCES
• Puan Natrah Binti Mat Arif
Advisor of Homeroom Zamrud 06
Mobile : 019 – xxxxxx

• Puan Noraini Binti Bahari
Advisor of MEGA Editorial Board
Mobile : 019 - xxxxxx

_____________________________________________________________

ESSAY

Why Me?
By Nurul Adibah Binti Abdul Rahman.

"Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it." - Michael Jordon

A motivational advices and quotes from my heart to my soul. It teaches me everything, every second, everyday to be brave, and especially do not easily quit before I try to achieve my star in the sky that lighten up my dream. Generally, that is me.

Ever since I could remember I wanted to be a doctor, and when I was younger, I of course played doctor. I used to take my stuffed animals, line them up by appointments, then give them physicals and determine their illnesses. It sounds like a silly game a child would play but to me, it was serious. I have always had big dreams, even if it appears unrealistic. This determination that I possess is what has made me who I am today; a confident, intelligent young woman who will become a successful pediatrician.

To study in overseas, especially United Kingdom, kingdom of greatness and technology, specifically in the medical field is more than just a dream for me. I believe that every person who is put on this earth has a reason for being, that they have a mission that would make their lives and lives of others flourish and leaving them fulfilled and happy. I could never understand how anyone could question what they wanted to do in life, how they could not have an idea of what their purpose in life was.

But me, I was different. I have a firmness of purpose, a powerful will. My parents have always taught me to strive for the best and never settle for less, or that would be exactly what you would receive, “less”. This concept has been drummed in my head and I am glad that they taught me that lesson to be a doctor, specifically pediatrician. I also believe that the medical profession is a platform for me to achieve my ambition of creating a caring community and this can be done by forging close relationship while providing medical treatments for those in need.

Throughout my life, having the insight attitude is my first focus. Discipline, commitment, respect of others, being competitive and most importantly never surrender are the values that I practiced towards my 13-years career as a student. As true Malay, I will raise the pride of my people by being outstanding, especially in information technology and education.

I am going to major in pre-medicine and get accepted in medical school. After graduating with my first degree in the medical field, I would devote myself as a doctor who is fully committed to her duty of serving the nation and country. At the same time, the invaluable experience I would gain throughout the years would also equip me before I could proceed further into becoming a specialist, pediatric critical care specialist.

No matter what I have to do, I will make it happen because in the face of adversity, I believe “Don’t give up, don’t ever give up.”


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Phew, after all the references I'd made. Here I come, McB !

Heart will hold these memories.



Flashback ;
Deeb .


p/s ; Rasanya saya pun mahu menyimpan kenangan ini. Kan, Fariz? Sorry capub nama anda.

; Handsome and awesome, you :)

"Dibaa, buatkan ayah air teh ais ke, kopi ais ke.. kurang manis eh." - Ayah

Happy Father's Day, Daddy! I hope you know how much I love you. I am so incredibly blessed to have a dad who is not only a father, but also a friend. You might not ever read this blog, but it doesn't matter, I want everyone else to know how special you are to me. You already know you are.

First time I heard you dropped your tears during my critical condition in the ICU.

I love all our fun moments together. I remember the time when we used to collect dragonflies and pin it up at the plastic tree, I was just three back then. Entered into the wrong cinema box to watch Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban but it was actually the Chicken Little box. Your phone and credit cards were all out damaged when you jumped into the swimming pool just to save me. Trying out most of the blazer in Edmundser and asking for my opinion. And Ibu did not know how much we spent during the shopping. And the list goes.

I cherish and miss our ridiculous moments together.

I also love our serious times as well. I love all the things you taught me; I sincerely believe that you know almost everything. Your wisdom has been so important to me throughout my 18 years of existence, and will continue to be important to me for the rest of my life. Thanks for being there when I cry, for giving me advice when I need it, for teaching me so many things, and for just plain being wonderful. I'm glad to have a dad who is an amazing father, friend, and pastor to boot!

They said I have your kind of look which is ehem, handsome :) And I hope I can inherit your confidence and instincts about something.

Even though you're a little loco, I wouldn't want you any other way! I love you! You rock my world.

Abdul Rahman Bin Shamsi,
Servant of Allah, The Generousity.

Your daughter ;
Dibaa .

; Waiting for the finale.

You haven't lost your smile at all, it's right under your nose.
You just forgot it was there.

___________________________________________

Salam 'alayk and Hello.

I am wearing the smile once again to soar higher.

Nevertheless, happiness is momentary. Macam biskut, kata orang. I won't lie and say I am not agitated on IB Diploma starting soon. The challenge, the tribulation and the visions that I once had, finally will be installed upon me. To tune me into the study mode that I have be missing and devoted for is now creeping me out. Bila tiada diangau-angaukan, bila dah muncul ditidak-tidakkan. Manusia, manusia. Haish.

Funny how confronting I sound right now.

Five days is all I have now, after 6 months of nonsense and relaxing as a spoil brat. I'll make sure I use these five days to my satisfaction. No time for escape.

Phew.

Settled with the documents and forms.
I've got the list of items.
Crossing down the accomplishments to this moment.

So not finale.

Whatever it may be, this is pretty easy. As long as it goes with the plan.

At least, for now.


Escape ;
Deeb .

; Before anything.

When you have completed 95 percent of your journey,
you are only halfway there.


________________________________

Salam 'alayk and hello,

To this extent, I let the mind speaks and the fingers locate the words. Just so you know, I do not want to spill everything here and just keep things simple.

Once, I wonder of being something simple by not dragging too many complications in my life. Yet, the petty little things happened. Mission aborted.

Simplicity has its beauty. I liked it. However, the wonder starts to fade away as I embed myself into misery. Sudden missing of what I see before.

I keep on moving and strangely, I have made it to this point, Subhanallah, He, Al-Qayyum' s has the plan for us. I keep on hoping and praying to allow greater things happen. Hoping is good, they said. I must say, it gets you going and learning as you get tougher with everything. I really want to master every part of this, notably, when you get crushed, and you have all the ways to handle things in your pocket. And, to my amazement, it only happens through experiences.

"Allah tells us that we will be tested. He also makes it clear to us what is expected from us when we undergo these trials and what our reward will be if we are successful." - http://www.islamtoday.com

Compare to what Allah is testing to the Palestinians, mine is just as small unicellular. Yet, I sighing for nothing (in case, please istighfar)

I want to live simple and happy life. But it seem that I can't reduce my high level of expectations towards life with my level of happiness - Nineteen Minutes. Brilliant. I don't visualize it though. In short I would say, sometimes, people does not satisfy with everything they actually had enough. Dissapoint about discontent. Think.

Okay, get confuse with this. Sky high expectations involves high expectations of dissapointment, hence, lessens the possibility of getting high level expectations in life. Perhaps, you want it to be the other way round where low expectations will do less dissapointment then, getting back the happiness on the track? And that is why they created the sayings of, "Everyday is Mathematics". Some sort of word play. Probability, to my certainty.

It makes sense. In fact, it really does.

And looks like my next expectations will be just equivalent with nada? Hmm. NO.

I am just afraid that it happens to be someday, when I wake up I could not bear any petty junks in my life and worst, I do not know how to cut the things off. And the day will come when I pierce my tongue which is never an occurance.

It is going to be hurt, but I am sure I will be rewarded upon this. I think I deserve a better version of life itself (Oh, poyo je).
Pardon the boasting.

Well, I write in my melancholy mode. The date with Mr. Thesaurus was not that bad after all. And reading makes one mind to travel. Figuratively.


Melancholy ;
Deeb .

; Senseless.

Salam and hello.

I think, I have lost my sense of writing. The ideas of writing something seems to be hidden beneath the my rusty mind. Merely, I do not want to endeavor about my good old days to be swaybacked and my future which is yet, undetermined. Thinking about my yesterdays would not bring any good, indeed, nothing. It is a pathetic and berserk to refresh into the ancient. Unsubtly, it is worse to kill off the wills on one person and of course darken the future ahead. To be frank, just keep the pasts into the mind's closet and never tend to repeat it back. Nothing ever change the pasts and no one knows what will happen tomorrow. TODAY SHOULD BE MY DAY. This is what the La Tahzan, exactly reminded me to carve the quote to the wall of my heart.

Yes, I am reading the international best seller motivation book, La Tahzan. Ayah bought it two days ago, and this handy book really a blissful. Chiefly, I take the words with all my hearts, ponder upon the contents wisely and try very hard to do just the same. Shift the negative thoughts about anything.

Yes, going to McB, is a dream come true to me. I am going to be an exclusive International Baccalaureate Diploma Programme student for two years. Overwhelming? Hmmmph.. I am grateful for that Allah has given me such opportunity to blend myself into the new environment. In spite of all these favourable circumstances, I am senseless. Where are all the to-buy and must-have lists which intrigued me before? I wonder... I have done with the meds, bank, half of the forms. After that? I lost. Leaving me in anticipation.

Eeee, dimanakah deria keseronokan kanak-kanak riang saya? Siapa dah curi ni? Haaa? Bagi balik, cepat!

Dah la tu, saya nak jadi serius dan komited! Boleh kan? Boleh la. InsyaAllah.


Anda rasa ? ;
Deeb .

; I second these .

Read and analyse. Anyhow, people tend to ignore this. I can't stand the facts that some folks need this kind of drama to make the scene, I mean any scenes. I ponder upon something like the typical high school teen drama such as 90120? Or The Mean Girls? Ugh, I am being sarcastic and so do the drama too (Exclude House and Prison Break :P) Also because of the fact that, dramatic pathetic, have too much time on their hands, with nothing better to do, hence, resort to spreading rumours about others. Pity them. Saya menyampah. Mungkin, mereka menikmati daging saudara sendiri? Adakah?

Man these people are so not worth it.

But this one,

is for you and me.
Obviously, one who does not welcome with any sorts of show business,
and able to resist the conflicts and leave the world for a better place.
Let's just make things more valuable to others.
And the karma will return to you, ceh.

Shift the negativity,
Spread the love ♥.


Remember, Fitnah is worse than a homicide. Renung-renungkan, dan selamat beramal !


Note to self ;
Deeb .

; Of selipar jamban and tracksuit getah .

I know not what I lack
Or when I lost my will
Only that I glimpse redemption
Within a possible future
One I cannot seem to reach
As the past holds my chest
- Anounymous

_______________________

Peace be with you,

Did I ever come out with something my definite first time which I had attained of my two first-rated years in MJSC Beseri, Perlis to you? Oh, not yet. Taking in account, I, myself have just conceived that the statement I am going to deal with, perhaps will wreak some ugly fuss or, whatever. Inspite of all the matter, to me these story fascinates my endurance. Or I was just being a gleeful? Eh, kenapa la minah ni?

Not much to comment on, but still.

1. Chiefly, I have more and more and more friends (in all sorts of ways) and whom I thought before in my ice age time, they would never approach into my life. Until now, and forever :)

2. The comparisons of their lifestyle and social status could be discovered here. The social circle was completely different and exciting which one had mind perception towards another. They thought I was a snobby, HAHAHAHAHA. Truthfully, I am just another girl next door. Geeee.

3. First time, I met many people who were actually watched Spa-Q during the dinner in our so-called Dewan Selera (Kingdom of 'Cute' Cats) was pratically, intertwined the women. In preference, woke up for sahur entirely to see Fahrin Ahmad in Seputeh Qaseh Ramadhan and came out with the AWWWWW-ed, OHHHHH-ed, CEPAT LAAA-ed in the same tune. Despite the fact, it sounded weird and ugly, admittedly it is another loss.

4. First time, I met with groups of brainy clan in actions (which was only connected with pencils and papers) and their brilliant smile thrilled me to be around them. Plus, I assumed myself as a junior Socrates the fact that I was not.

5. First time, I heard folks with the Kedah accent and lively be in contact, adding up I had zero idea of what on earth did they actually babbled about. I dare say, I did confronted to them with something like "Oi, aku tak faham apa kau kata lah. Cakap bahasa biasa boleh tak?". Indeed my first time to learn the meaning of "ayaq chaq" and "cekang". For real, they rolled in the aisles when I used "hang" and "depa" in conversations -.-!

6. First time, I formulated my own conclusion that selipar jamban, baju pendek, tracksuit getah and tudung selimpang folded in the most vogue way (supposingly, you get me here) believe to be okay (though this achievement is banned without reserved and pathetic) while outing time in Kangar during the weekends.

7. First time, I failed to sleep when the boys roared as Kelantan lost to Kedah in Malaysia Cup .(Uh, were the team?). Also, of having a free alarm clock for subuh everytime Ustaz Yusri play the beat of hei motorcycle.

8. First time, playing the role as the sleeping beauty in a class was no big deal regardless I was dragged over milions time by the teacher and still, never repented. The definition of homeworks and assignments never seemed to be discovered.

10. First time, I met bodies yang who unquestionably whisked their eyes to scarlet and watery solely looked like they had been infected. Attempt to get the MC from the clinic, and doomed, it was just a failure.

11. First time, I conceive and understand the body politics, mostly with various manner of in term of humanity.


Genuinely, there are loads of first time.
Those are only the rough ideas.

Growing up can be pretty hard. The older you get, the older you want to be, but when you hit OLDNESS, you wish that the younger times could be spent wisely. Correctly. But what's life if everything you want to do is correct? To my certainty, wrong. Ultimately, life is an unexpected outcomes prior to be valued. We are solely the servants and nothing but Allah, the All Knowing and All Powerful the master beneath everything.

THE NEVER ENDING KNOWLEDGE.




Nostalgic ;
Deeb .


p/s ; I need new tennis racquet.

; Lonely, I am .

Bisik ku pada bulan
Kembalikan temanku
Kekasihku, syurgaku
Tanpa dia
Malam menemaniku
Sepi memelukku
Bulan jangan biar siang
Biar malam ini kelam
Biar ia sepi sepertiku

- Sepi

____________________________

Salam and hello.


I salute Khabir Bahtia Sepi's movie. So, what if I was backdated so much? At least, I made use of Citra new established Astro channel. This movie, as I call it a celebration as an amazing contribution to our local film industry. Sepi is another one of Khabir Bahtia genius idea to split the storyline into three same common theme, of course loneliness. What I love about this movie are the storyline, the cinematography (the way they edited the scenes is all two thumbs up!) and surely the soundtrack caught me into the whole movie, especially Kembang Perawan by Gita Gutawa.

Oh, did they won any award for the film festival? They should. In my perception, this movie is very sensational and make one wants to fall in love. Okay, whatever. I had these warm and fuzzy feelings while watching this. I ought to feel the tears on the cheek, surprisingly I was not.


It is a movie about the story of a chef named Adam (Afdlin Shauki) who is single and trying to find his soulmate as a wife, a shoe factory owner, Sufi (Tony Eusoff) who feels convicted from the loss of his wife in an unexpected car crash and there is Imaan (Baizura Kahar) a literature savvy who carries a strong memories of her past that she should actually left behind. Undoubtedly, the movie is somehow contains good-humored as Afdlin and Nasha Aziz brings the chuckle here and there.

Very unlikely to deliver the message clearly, consequently, better watch it for yourself. You will know what I am portraying. This movie, in any way, does not contain the typical stuff you experience in other Malay movies. Most probably to be the best movie ever.

Perhaps, I should do movie marathon just like my sister did.

Oh, darn!

TOO LATE.

Sunyi ;
Deeb .

; Salam dari Mexico .

Okay, so, I got the link of this funny video from Kak Ain who is currently studying in Cardiff, U. K doing medicine. You guys better watch this out. It's really inspired me to do one. HA HA HA.

ENJOY .

InsyaAllah, who knows ?
I will be in youtube.com.
Google it :P

Oh la le ;
Deeb .

; Just keep it simple

Finally, I have changed my current page template.

Simple.

:)



Vintage mode ;
Deeb .

; Revisiting the Archies comics

And, I am not merely thinking about David Archuleta, okay?

I was browsing through the network, google for some information on how to do this and that. Believe me, I even google 'HOW TO BE GOOD IN MATHEMATICS' plus 'HOW TO NOT BE SLEEPY IN CLASS'. Pity me. Well, at least I put some efforts into it, right? God knows how hard I'd tried.

I clicked at the facebook tab, since I had found the same tips over and over again and it did help me a bit. I saw new shout post by Priya, my old schoolmate in Hartamas. She did this Archies quiz "What Archie character are you?". I gazed at the answer written. HAHA, she got the Cheryl Blossom character. So, I put a try into it, hoping to get Betty Cooper, the girl next door :)

Questions passed by
.
.
.
POOF !

Secret revealed! I am likely to be Betty, gahaha.

Truth be told, I just love it. So my mission now is to provide a blissfully happy example of how terrific the outcome of change, no matter how sudden and drastic, can be. And the best thing is just stick to yourself and keep one's chin up, yeah. Somehow, it gets me into my nerves while trying to adapt into any new life cases, and I bet everyone else feels just the same.

As I can recall, my last hang out with my classic tales of America's favorite was after my UPSR, 5 years ago? I remembered that it was me who played the Clues board games investigating the culprits ang the victims kind of games. Until now, I really question myself, "Eh, did I read Archies?"

I, sometimes sit at the back of my class reading corner with the soft cushion on my lap reading the Archies because there were plenty of the comics brought by my friends. I could not buy those, it cost about RM7.00 okay? And my daily pocket money was only RM2.00, enough to buy one stick one sausage or mee kari and a plastics of syrup during the recess. To be exact, I was only 12 years old that time and rarely go out. Gradually, however, I discovered the appeal of books and my obsessive towards the stories until it sudden ended early my high school :(

What I found latest about the Archies and the gang are, they are still in Riverdale High School and I am about to pursue my studies in a college in less than 20 days. Consequently, what is going on, actually? I really hope that Archie propose to sweet and lovely, Betty and definitely a no-no for Veronica the spoil and rich girl.





Or maybe I should start dating with my handsome Mathematics books sooner because I dumped Physics 6 months ago. Too complicated to be with, haha. Whatever.



The post is nothing ;
Deeb .



p/s ; Am still searching endlessly about HOW TO BE GOOD WITH NUMBERS. Anyone?

; Chain of memories.

Note ; Please pause the current song to get better emotion with this video.
I am serious.

Can I just let the pictures tell you the stories ? Let the excitement and joy be with me, enough said.

To my super hyperactive and sweet friends ;

Aimi, Ainun, Ain, DbaNoh, Echah, Fasihah, KakChik, Mimi, Syud, Syanad, Wahida

Thanks for the wonderful time. You guys rock my world :)

MRSM Beseri is the BEST, The BEST is MRSM Beseri

Always.

Thank God I've found you ;
Deeb .


p/s ; InsyaAllah, may Allah ease our journey ahead.